I've been in a relationship for almost two years. We communicate and talk things out, we have a pretty healthy relationship. I love him and he's been with me through a severe diagnosis but something has been bugging me. We talked about r*pe in one of my psych courses and something stuck with me. If you tell them no beforehand or they constantly pressure you into it, it's r*pe. He's done both, that's how I lost my v-card to him and him to me. I told him no beforehand, and he did it anyway. I was tired from a night shift and didn't have enough energy to push him off. He even said after "I know you didn't want to" and it's stuck with me for this past year. I love him, but I keep thinking back on that. I don't know what to do, he hasn't done it since but...I'm scared it will.