I’ve always felt like “that” friend. I never thought much of their behaviour and actions towards me but tonight made me realise they don’t truly care about me like friends should. I’m the last option for them - I’m always forgotten about and walked over. Tonight they went out for drinks, they didn’t invite me. One of them lives out of town, so they drive past my house to get into town. Never thought to invite me. I’ve gone above and beyond for them and they don’t seem to care. I thought of them as my sisters but in their eyes I just fill a space. I’ve spent the last hour or two in my bed, being questioned my by Mum as to why I’m not with them. I feel so small.. so unnecessary in their lives. I don’t know what to do. I’m so alone

I always feel like I have no friends. I have two friendsgroups but still I feel like it. I just started 8th grade last year, a new class and a new school, but still the same people. I got in class with 3 of my besties. Were were a group. But only one of them was like my real bestie. Then we met a girl from another school in our class and became friends with her too. But it was most my bestie that got friends with her, also one of the others in the group. My bestie and her started to hangout more often then I could hang out with her. Im jealous. And I know i am. Im jealous of the new girl that stealed my bestie. But she didnt steal her, my "old" bestie left me. But I still have the two other friends in the friend group. We 5 are still a group, but not so much. I also have this other friend group where one of the others from the other group is in too. We are 6 girls. Four of them was really a friend grouo, but then me and the other friend made it in the group. Or atleast I thought I did. (I walk with two of them to school) Today, both said they werent walking home, cause their going to the mall, but I didnt think they were going together. But when I found out all the 5 others in the grouo were going together, i got sad. It felt like they left me out. Im so bad at asking to join too. I feel like that would be disrespectful. I feel like everyone hates ne, and that im annoying to be around. Please help me, i litterly dont know if I can do it anymore.

• July 27, 2023