in october of 2021, my great grandmother(she lives in india) had a problem with her sodium levels. and of course she was old so she wasn’t doing so well. anyways, me and my family were on vacation in tennessee. it was a good morning actually, we woke up in our hotel room all happy. my dad went to go take a shower, and my mom got a call from my grandmother. we got news that my OTHER great grandmother (not the one who wasn’t doing well) passed away. she and my other great grandmother were best friends, she saw her for the first time after a while, with wires and oxygen masks. she had a heart attack after she saw her. exactly 20 days later, great grandmother ( the other one) also passed away. why? heart attack. from realizing that her best friend passed away. after this, i became depressed, i tried telling my parents, but they would refuse the believe that i was depressed. my worst regret is not spending enough time with my great grandmothers, im gonna go to india this summer, but it breaks my heart knowing that i won’t be able to see them. every night, i have this pillow that i keep next to me, i talk to the pillow, pretending that it’s my great grandmothers. i tell them about my day, my friends, and everything. and of course, how much i miss them. on bad days, i cry on that pillow. i don’t tell anyone, no one notices. i’m typically the fun therapist friend so i can’t tell anyone, i don’t wanna bother people with my problems. anyways, thanks for actually reading this.