In November I went over to my ex’s house, we weren’t on the best terms because she was very flirty with me and had a gf so I thought it was wrong. I stayed there for about 3 hours before I told her I was gonna leave soon. She would cuddle up to me trying to fall asleep and asking me not to leave. She also told me earlier that she was planning on breaking up with her girlfriend. As I got up on the bed she begged me not to leave and she suddenly started making out with me. I can’t lie I did miss her but she had a girlfriend and I knew it was wrong. She pulled away and asked me to stay again and I told her I had to go. She got anxious and I comforted her then left. a week later I found out she took her life the night I was at her house. I feel guilty as I believe if I stayed longer, she might have not done it. :| I can’t let go of the guilt. I miss her so much.