I’m suicidal But I won’t commit to offing myself because i know there’s people that care for me. But my mind is so full of thoughts that i have no room left for the will to live. So to add the room I isolated myself, and now all my family thinks i’m trying to do is be lazy. Though really i’m fighting for the will to live, but ill never tell them that. Besides, who wants to hear what I have to say anyways.

Alr so.. when I was younger I would get physically abused everyday till until about the age of 12 when I was saved from that home. (I’m 17 this year …) I always thought it was normal to grow up that way.. idk why I thought parents did that. I’m working through therapy but even they don’t know the darkest part about it . Anyway.. I still love them with everything In me.. that’s the problem tho.. im afraid to let go of the people I love the most . What do I do bcs I keep self harming and idk what to do anymore people keep leaving and hurting me so.. it’s like what do I even do yk. It’s too painful to even bring up verbally .. so yeah thanks for listening

• July 28, 2023