I’m not really sure what to do, I think I might love one of my friends. We have had a thing in the past but when that was over I never really thought back to it. Until recently when I’ve began to gain those feelings again. She always talks about all these other guys she likes or the ones that like her. I know she won’t look my way again and that’s okay. I want her happy. But I feel selfish that I was her to be happy with me. I cant get her out of my head. I want her to look my way. But she won’t. It’s hard to like a friend because she tells me a lot about her relationship life. I try to give advice and I do. But it hurts me in the process. Sometimes I do little things to make her happy because it makes me happy. The little imperfections she has are so adorable. I cant help having those feelings towards her. I want to move on but I’m not sure how to even do that. I still have hope. Even tho she obviously wants a boyfriend and I can’t be that for her since, well I’m not a guy. Sometimes I wish I was. Only for her. I know I could treat her so much better. But I’m not a guy and I don’t have a problem with that. I’m a girl and that’s that. I don’t want to be a guy if that makes sense. But I do. But not for the reason you think. I mean maybe. I don’t really know. I think it’s just since she wants a guy. But if she wanted me for me. I would love that. And she did. She wanted me in the past and I was the one who messed up. Who knows. Maybe in the future things will go good. Lol I’m sorry I don’t know why I’m writing this