Im just a young girl trying to figure out what to do with myself but lately its been difficult at the age of 11 i was touched by a close relative and ive been having experience with getting touched since 9-10 I like to keep to myself but its been difficult cause i keep seeing them and i took away my people (jailed) and i feel like if only i kept my mouth shut none of that would have been a problem and i wouldnt have this guilt building up. With no surprise i was scared of men for a couple years cause my trust was broken but now Im dealing with some abuse and im just lost in my own little world. All this regret is killing me.

A couple months ago my mom sold our house to my dad and moved so I ended up staying with him and his girlfriend. I had a dog at the time and a month after my dad moved in i had to give him away to one of my sister's friends which broke my heart i cried alot for my dog and 2 months after she called me crying that he had passed away due to not being cared for I completely lost it my dog was a special needs dog who needed extra care and attention but she didn't listen to me when I told her that. I'm so heart broken on top of dealing with the loss of my fur baby I was also dealing with my dad and his girlfriend who doesn't like me until I had enough and decided to move out on my last day at my old house my dad suggested that I leave my dogs ashes here which I went off on him and told him that's never happening my dog goes where I go because he believes having them is bringing people with bad vibes into my life and bad things happen to me because of the dogs ashes the only people in my life with bad vibes is him and his girlfriend who have caused me so much stress I was treated really bad by both of them especially her but he doesn't want to put the blame on himself or her so ofcourse he would think of blaming my dog who had passed away and that I had to give away because of him

• July 12, 2023