I'm addicted to maladaptive daydreaming. I have worked through a dozen or so sets of characters and 'storylines' that I will day dreams about for months, sometimes years at a time before I create another set of characters/storylines.

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I'm addicted to maladaptive daydreaming. I have worked through a dozen or so sets of characters and 'storylines' that I will day dreams about for months, sometimes years at a time before I create another set of characters/storylines.

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