im a compulsive liar. I dont know how else to say it. I don't enjoy lying i hate attention. I just do it. Its gotten so bad sometimes i believe the lies i tell myself. Im so scared to tell a docter about it because theres this kid at my school whos dad is my docter and even though his dad isnt supposed to he tells his son but theres no proof. He knows i go to therapy for my anxiety and paranoia because of his dad and he told everyone. Im so scared hed tell my boyfriend if i told my docter i think im a compulsive liar because my boyfriend would probably break up with me and hes the only person i havent even told a white lie to. I don't wanna lose my boyfriend but i dont wanna continue like this. What should i do?

TW// self harm & suicide i’m known as the “perfect girl” with a “perfect life” by everyone. my parents are still together. there are literally no problems in my family, everyone gets along really well. we aren’t struggling with money. i have all A’s. i was accepted into one of the top private schools in my state. i’ve been on homecoming court and i’ve been elected for a position in the student council. my parents do everything they can to give me an amazing life. but for some reason i feel so sad. i don’t know why and i feel so selfish but i feel sad. i feel like everyone hates me and like they would be better off without me. everyone thinks i’m perfect and my friends even tell me that i’m “the only mentally stable person” that they know. i’m scared of telling anyone else this after it got out and got to my parents. but since this is anonymous i wanted to let it out. i self harm and i relapsed so many times. i attempted 3 times in the past 2 years. obviously it didn’t work and i don’t plan on doing it again for now but i have thoughts about it. it sucks. and i feel so hopeless and helpless even more since no one can see it. i know this is selfish but sometimes i wish people would try and understand and talk to me

• August 5, 2023