I'm 15 now ,I've have been through so much ,but i still think of the day my dad killed my dog by hanging him at the tree, I could hear the dog like begging for his life and crying , I tried to stop my dad but I couldn't.. I just stood there helpless, crying, seeing how the man who was supposed to make me feel safe ,made me feel terrible and seeing how my little four-legged best friend who was always there for me closing his eyes and knowing that I will never feel his joy again . I feel so bad to this day .I feel like it's my fault cause I couldn't stop him .I couldn't help my little buddy ,while he helped me at all the ways a person could be saved .

I'm a bad kid, being me ik all my family's passwords nobody can hide anything from me without me finding out in due time. I always get in trouble and do stuff to make my mom mad so for some reason I went through my mom's phone through her texts all her listed passwords and I came across a note in her phone it was locked I typed in the password I used to get into her phone and it opened that's how I found out my mom was depressed and planned to.. in a few months my heart dropped at reading this I had been such an awful kid and I was the reason. Then something in me changed and I just couldn't be a bad daughter anymore I wanted to but there was always an invisible force holding me back. I started showing more love and support and on the date that was read on her phone she took me to a bridge over water pulled to the side of the road and told me to get out I panicked because I knew what she was gonna do but instead she came clean to me and we talked and I told her that I already knew about it. As bad of a daughter I was I love and always will love my mom and I couldn't stand the thought of losing her.

• August 6, 2023