I would talk to a lot of people online. I met this guy who was 16, I was 13. He seemed so kind and he would say the most sweetest things. But he would suddenly say things about moving on and finding someone new. I would lose my mind and beg and beg him not to leave me. He would finally tell me he was kidding and would act like he normally would. I remember the first time I saw a picture of him, I thought he was so handsome. I saw more, but then I kept getting the feeling that he was much older than 16. I eventually ghosted him, I blocked him and acted like I never knew him. About a year later I unblocked him and decided to text him. I’m not sure why I did. He texted me almost immediately saying how he missed me and how he didn’t look at another person all that time. I once again was swept away. I was either 14-15 then and remembered about his age. I felt uncomfortable again and blocked him once again. His bio still says my name with a blue heart next to it. I have not told anyone about this.

I was a sophomore in high school when I went to stay at my mothers house since I had Drama practice after school. We finish drama and R and M go to wait for us while E comes with me to go ask to hang out. Keep in mind I’ve been living with my grandma since 13 since my mother decided she wanted to kick me out. So we went and asked my moms bf at the time and then a woke argument started because I asked him to call my grandma to get my grandmas permission, since I live with her. He basically shrugs me off and calls me mom who was a CNA at the time while she’s at work. My moms upset because he called her clearly by the tome in her voice and says no and that’s the end of it for him. I once again ask him to call my grandma and he tells me I’m being disrespectful and I’m going to follow my mothers rules. After that we argued again and E is already walking back into town at this point. My moms bf then proceeded to tell me to get my stuff and get out, kind you I’m only 15 at this point. So I grab everything I brought with me, which was a duffle bag, school backpack, and a few other things and caught up with E crying like crazy because I just got kicked out. We met up with R and M and we all start going back to M’s place and I know my mother is very abusive so I’m not going with her if she ended up showing up. I guess sometime during us walking my moms bf called her saying I left. My mom finds us right as we make it to M’s house and immediately starts screaming for me to get in the car. I go into a panic attack and R and E stand in front of me and M is on the phone with the police. My mom threatens to hit them and everything else. Years later my mom and I are on decent terms and I asked her about it. She proceeded to stick up for him and say “you should’ve come and visited more often and it wouldn’t have happened.” My mothers ego is worth more than her child’s mental health.

• June 16, 2023