I wish that I never met the girls that changed my life. They caused and cause me so much pain. I’m not even the same me that I was. All because I but my trust and love into someone who didn’t love me back. It’s because of them I feel like I’m not enough. I’m learning slowly that I’m not the problem but maybe I am. I loved them so much and they aren’t even here anymore. To this day I still love them.

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I wish that I never met the girls that changed my life. They caused and cause me so much pain. I’m not even the same me that I was. All because I but my trust and love into someone who didn’t love me back. It’s because of them I feel like I’m not enough. I’m learning slowly that I’m not the problem but maybe I am. I loved them so much and they aren’t even here anymore. To this day I still love them.

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