I was so lonely, I cheated on someone I loved. At first I thought he was just going to leave me like everyone else or use me for my body. So I felt like, it wouldn’t even matter if I did. But, and yes it was so hard, I was so guilty, I hated myself so much when I realized how much I really did hurt him. And he blocked me for a while.. which I understood. I was so upset. I knew I deserved the silence, I knew I deserved the pain I was feeling in that moment because I hurt him. Karmas a bitch.. afterwards he unblocked me, calmed me down and admitted that he forgave me. After that I swore I would never hurt him again. I deleted every contact I had exept for the ones I needed, I cleared my discord dms and blocked a lot of people. I promise I will never hurt him again. Our relationship has grown so much in the last 6 months. And honestly I don’t regret it as much, the mistakes ive made has made me grow as a person. And has made our relationship so much stronger. I know I can trust him with anything. And I know he’d never hurt me. I don’t think he’s going to leave me this time.

I been thinking real hard about even relaying these awful things about the person that I have admired the most, the person I have respected and revered my whole life but that now, has completely backstabbed me in the worst way possible. A few years ago, a scandal broke in my political family involving my mother. As you can imagine, it nearly broke my marriage and tore my husband’s family apart. My sister in law found my father in law and my mom talking on social media. The worst part of it, when I was confronted, I was accused of knowing about the whole affair and made it looked like I was an accomplice to the whole ordeal. When I had absolutely no clue to such a disgusting mess. I don’t know what neither of them were trying to accomplish and now, I’m the black sheep of the family. No one talks to me. While my father in law is still loved and honored. My mother the home wrecker and I pay the sins of her ordeals. She never once has said I’m sorry. Never! In her head, I’m better off without that side of the family. But it’s not about that; why did she do this to me? Why my father in law? Among so many men? Why him! I guess I’m just looking for an explanation and I know I will never get it from her. Because she just cannot accept she did anything wrong. I wish I could get her version because as of now, I only know everyone else’s but her’s. I always thought I didn’t need to hear her side because it’s not my place to question her, but I have kids who now have to suffer for her sins as well. I don’t think it’s fair to them either. I guess the damage is done as well and the past is the past. I won’t get nothing accomplished but I just want an acknowledgment from her part that she messed up.

• August 12, 2023