I was SAed and have an STD. This might sound crazy but I’ve had an STD for as long as I can remember. The oldest time that I know I had it was when I was five. This is an actual STD and there is no other way i could get it other than having s*xual contact with someone. I was a CHILD. I’ve come to accept the STD as part of me but I won’t let go the fact that someone did that to a child. Just know if you are that sick person and are seeing this right now I will find you one day. You messed my future up, I was just a kid.

My home isn’t a safe place anymore. it’s a bad environment and every time i leave school joyously, and enter my house, my mood completely flips into a negative one. everyone in my family always accuses me of who knows what and gets mad at me if i don’t let them control and manipulate me. every weekend i sleep at other peoples houses because i don’t want to be in that house longer then i have to and none of them even know about it. my mom always tells me i should express myself but when i do everyone just gets defensive and aims my accusations towards me as if it makes sense. i don’t know what to do anymore and i need help.

• July 25, 2023