I was in love with this boy. I met him, I'm pretty sure, my 8th grade year. He had absolutely no interest in me but i still talked to him. At one point i got tired of it and told myself i wasnt going to message him and if he cared about me then he would message me. Well he didnt until he saw me a couple months later. Fast forward like 2 years and its my sophomore year of highschool. I was still talking to this dude and he finally asked me out. I ended up sneaking out to hang out with him and i had my first kiss. Then one day i was hanging out at his house and he wouldnt stop doing things to me. He ended up raping me and to this day even though its been 2 years i never say he raped me. Because a part of me wanted it too. But it happened after like a month of dating. Remind you i had my first kiss when he asked me out so i literally went from not even kissing anybody to not being a virgin within a month. All i say to people now that ive accepted it is that he SA’ed me but he raped me. Thats the flat out truth. And ive never told anyone