I was 5 or 6 in kindy and this boy that I use to sit next to in the computer room would always shove his hands down there and squeeze my thing. He told me one day to do it back to him or he’d tell on me and I was young so I didn’t wanna get in trouble. I moved away in year 2 then moved back in year 5 but I didn’t go back to the same school I went to another one and I became friends with this girl (let’s call her T) T and I got to know each other and later on I found out she was cousins with the boy that did that to me.. I never told her but we are no longer friends. My heart sunk today as I walked past the boy..I’m not 13

TW// self harm & suicide i’m known as the “perfect girl” with a “perfect life” by everyone. my parents are still together. there are literally no problems in my family, everyone gets along really well. we aren’t struggling with money. i have all A’s. i was accepted into one of the top private schools in my state. i’ve been on homecoming court and i’ve been elected for a position in the student council. my parents do everything they can to give me an amazing life. but for some reason i feel so sad. i don’t know why and i feel so selfish but i feel sad. i feel like everyone hates me and like they would be better off without me. everyone thinks i’m perfect and my friends even tell me that i’m “the only mentally stable person” that they know. i’m scared of telling anyone else this after it got out and got to my parents. but since this is anonymous i wanted to let it out. i self harm and i relapsed so many times. i attempted 3 times in the past 2 years. obviously it didn’t work and i don’t plan on doing it again for now but i have thoughts about it. it sucks. and i feel so hopeless and helpless even more since no one can see it. i know this is selfish but sometimes i wish people would try and understand and talk to me

• August 5, 2023