I was 13 years old when I started to feel Emmy world fall apart. My step dad was abusing my mom, my sister was starving herself, and my dad was always at work. I couldn’t help but take the pain away with a blade. It started on my thighs, then my hips, then my wrists n slowly it became a habit. One night I was in the bath and my sister walked in on me trying to drown myself and all I could think was fuck you your gonna get me in trouble…when I actually knew she just wanted me to be safe. But still to this day looking back all I wanna tell her is to go fuck herself for telling my parents

TW// self harm & suicide i’m known as the “perfect girl” with a “perfect life” by everyone. my parents are still together. there are literally no problems in my family, everyone gets along really well. we aren’t struggling with money. i have all A’s. i was accepted into one of the top private schools in my state. i’ve been on homecoming court and i’ve been elected for a position in the student council. my parents do everything they can to give me an amazing life. but for some reason i feel so sad. i don’t know why and i feel so selfish but i feel sad. i feel like everyone hates me and like they would be better off without me. everyone thinks i’m perfect and my friends even tell me that i’m “the only mentally stable person” that they know. i’m scared of telling anyone else this after it got out and got to my parents. but since this is anonymous i wanted to let it out. i self harm and i relapsed so many times. i attempted 3 times in the past 2 years. obviously it didn’t work and i don’t plan on doing it again for now but i have thoughts about it. it sucks. and i feel so hopeless and helpless even more since no one can see it. i know this is selfish but sometimes i wish people would try and understand and talk to me

• August 5, 2023