I stayed the night at friends house my freshman year and I couldn’t fall asleep so I just laid there and her dad came into the room and was standing by the bed I didn’t think anything of it at first I just pretended like I was sleeping he started to put his hand down my shirt and I didn’t know what to do so I acted like I was waking up and he left then came back in and I was on my phone and asked why I was still up. I never told my friend I was too scared I didn’t tell anyone about it I didn’t think they would believe and go this day I can’t stay at anyones house cause I’m scared.

TW// self harm & suicide i’m known as the “perfect girl” with a “perfect life” by everyone. my parents are still together. there are literally no problems in my family, everyone gets along really well. we aren’t struggling with money. i have all A’s. i was accepted into one of the top private schools in my state. i’ve been on homecoming court and i’ve been elected for a position in the student council. my parents do everything they can to give me an amazing life. but for some reason i feel so sad. i don’t know why and i feel so selfish but i feel sad. i feel like everyone hates me and like they would be better off without me. everyone thinks i’m perfect and my friends even tell me that i’m “the only mentally stable person” that they know. i’m scared of telling anyone else this after it got out and got to my parents. but since this is anonymous i wanted to let it out. i self harm and i relapsed so many times. i attempted 3 times in the past 2 years. obviously it didn’t work and i don’t plan on doing it again for now but i have thoughts about it. it sucks. and i feel so hopeless and helpless even more since no one can see it. i know this is selfish but sometimes i wish people would try and understand and talk to me

• August 5, 2023