i remember i used to be bestfriends with this girl. i forgot her name but we like did everything together. i remember her brother and i had a small crush on him. me and her were the same age and we were like 10 and her brother was 15. but anyway the three of us were in the hot tub at night and it was like in an apartment. her mom was inside cooking i think. my bestfriend went to go get something inside the house so it was just me and her brother. his brother started talking to me and lookin at me some typa way and he sat beside me. i dont remember what he said im sorry but he started touching me like on my private part and kissing me and i was too scared to stop him idk why. i dont remember anything after that but yea. im 16 now

TW// self harm & suicide i’m known as the “perfect girl” with a “perfect life” by everyone. my parents are still together. there are literally no problems in my family, everyone gets along really well. we aren’t struggling with money. i have all A’s. i was accepted into one of the top private schools in my state. i’ve been on homecoming court and i’ve been elected for a position in the student council. my parents do everything they can to give me an amazing life. but for some reason i feel so sad. i don’t know why and i feel so selfish but i feel sad. i feel like everyone hates me and like they would be better off without me. everyone thinks i’m perfect and my friends even tell me that i’m “the only mentally stable person” that they know. i’m scared of telling anyone else this after it got out and got to my parents. but since this is anonymous i wanted to let it out. i self harm and i relapsed so many times. i attempted 3 times in the past 2 years. obviously it didn’t work and i don’t plan on doing it again for now but i have thoughts about it. it sucks. and i feel so hopeless and helpless even more since no one can see it. i know this is selfish but sometimes i wish people would try and understand and talk to me

• August 5, 2023