I recently moved states, and i found my best friend that has changed my life. back before christmas we stopped talking for a while, and we were both miserable. we overcame and we’ve been fine until now. i recently got back into a sport that i’ve loved for 7 years of my life, and she hasn’t been the most supportive. practices are causing me to be late to church every week. i didn’t go to church for the first time in months because my practice got out late. when i returned the next week she didn’t even acknowledge me, and the seat i normally sit in next to her was taken. im so mad at the person i thought was my best friend. as a friend i feel that she should be supportive of me doing what makes me happy. i’m so jealous of the girl that was in my seat. they are both my friends and i feel as if both of them have stabbed me in the back. now my best friend doesn’t talk to me. i don’t even know what i did wrong, but she is my only close friend. it is currently 6 in the morning and i haven’t slept in days. i haven’t eaten a full meal in days either. i don’t even know what to do anymore.

I been thinking real hard about even relaying these awful things about the person that I have admired the most, the person I have respected and revered my whole life but that now, has completely backstabbed me in the worst way possible. A few years ago, a scandal broke in my political family involving my mother. As you can imagine, it nearly broke my marriage and tore my husband’s family apart. My sister in law found my father in law and my mom talking on social media. The worst part of it, when I was confronted, I was accused of knowing about the whole affair and made it looked like I was an accomplice to the whole ordeal. When I had absolutely no clue to such a disgusting mess. I don’t know what neither of them were trying to accomplish and now, I’m the black sheep of the family. No one talks to me. While my father in law is still loved and honored. My mother the home wrecker and I pay the sins of her ordeals. She never once has said I’m sorry. Never! In her head, I’m better off without that side of the family. But it’s not about that; why did she do this to me? Why my father in law? Among so many men? Why him! I guess I’m just looking for an explanation and I know I will never get it from her. Because she just cannot accept she did anything wrong. I wish I could get her version because as of now, I only know everyone else’s but her’s. I always thought I didn’t need to hear her side because it’s not my place to question her, but I have kids who now have to suffer for her sins as well. I don’t think it’s fair to them either. I guess the damage is done as well and the past is the past. I won’t get nothing accomplished but I just want an acknowledgment from her part that she messed up.

• August 12, 2023