I once broke a boys heart and it was a mistake. Hear me out: I was insecure and I didn’t think that a boy like him could like me. I mean he was popular, smart, funny and I was just shy and introverted and I didn’t think I could live up to his image. Also, let’s just say that I didn’t grow up in the best family (they’re better now) and I grow to be isolated and never talked to anyone about my problems. What’s worse is that we went to the same high school after primary school, and I got to relive my mistake for the next 5 years. During that time, I did try to apologise to him but I was also extremely anxious but I tried ways to get around it like trying to write him a letter or sent him a DM on Instagram telling him that he could always talk to me. Sadly, he never responded. I was also stressed, depressed and anxious for a few months. I couldn’t do any work, I was unmotivated and I couldn’t stop but think of how much I was a monster that I did that. What do you guys think?

TW// self harm & suicide i’m known as the “perfect girl” with a “perfect life” by everyone. my parents are still together. there are literally no problems in my family, everyone gets along really well. we aren’t struggling with money. i have all A’s. i was accepted into one of the top private schools in my state. i’ve been on homecoming court and i’ve been elected for a position in the student council. my parents do everything they can to give me an amazing life. but for some reason i feel so sad. i don’t know why and i feel so selfish but i feel sad. i feel like everyone hates me and like they would be better off without me. everyone thinks i’m perfect and my friends even tell me that i’m “the only mentally stable person” that they know. i’m scared of telling anyone else this after it got out and got to my parents. but since this is anonymous i wanted to let it out. i self harm and i relapsed so many times. i attempted 3 times in the past 2 years. obviously it didn’t work and i don’t plan on doing it again for now but i have thoughts about it. it sucks. and i feel so hopeless and helpless even more since no one can see it. i know this is selfish but sometimes i wish people would try and understand and talk to me

• August 5, 2023