I met my first boyfriend at the age of 16 and he was 21. he was my first love and I loved him with all the love I had. When we break up that left me broken and I was hurted. Through the time my close male friend helped me to go through it and suddenly I begun to fell for him hard and he started too. But still i hadn't forgot about my ex then. When things go wrong with my male friend that left me broken even more. Now um 20 years old I met a new guy at work which I am feeling sth for... but after 4 years whenever I get to meet my ex it feels like we're together.. I am afraid this feeling will last and I may never fall in love with another person for real. My ex still loves me but we can't be together for so many reasons. But he is the only man whom I feels really safe with and feel loved. I am thinking abt new guy but my feelings still stucks with my ex. What should I do?

TW// self harm & suicide i’m known as the “perfect girl” with a “perfect life” by everyone. my parents are still together. there are literally no problems in my family, everyone gets along really well. we aren’t struggling with money. i have all A’s. i was accepted into one of the top private schools in my state. i’ve been on homecoming court and i’ve been elected for a position in the student council. my parents do everything they can to give me an amazing life. but for some reason i feel so sad. i don’t know why and i feel so selfish but i feel sad. i feel like everyone hates me and like they would be better off without me. everyone thinks i’m perfect and my friends even tell me that i’m “the only mentally stable person” that they know. i’m scared of telling anyone else this after it got out and got to my parents. but since this is anonymous i wanted to let it out. i self harm and i relapsed so many times. i attempted 3 times in the past 2 years. obviously it didn’t work and i don’t plan on doing it again for now but i have thoughts about it. it sucks. and i feel so hopeless and helpless even more since no one can see it. i know this is selfish but sometimes i wish people would try and understand and talk to me

• August 5, 2023