I met a guy when I was in 7th grade (i’m now a senior). our moms had been friends for a while just me and him didn’t know eachother. he liked me a lot but me being dumb would always get an ick and never liked him back… we continued being the best of friends and freshman year comes around and i realized i had been in love with him from the moment i met him just didn’t wanna realize it… towards the end of the year we decided to try and be more than friend (or at least i thought) he was basically just leading me on to get n00ds while he was also texting my bestfriend behind my back while also having a fling with another girl. time goes on we move and continue talking and being bestfriends, i genuinely forgave him. now we are seniors and i’m still in love with him but i know he doesn’t feel the same way. we work together and are always together, everyone thinks we’re cute together and i think so too but i know he doesn’t see me like this. he means so much to but our friendship has become so toxic, he is always manipulating me, gaslighting me, and he isn’t someone i can trust but i love him, i always have. i recently ended our friendship for the best , and i know this should be a good thing but instead i feel worse. i love him and want him in my life. i want to reach out and just restart the friendship but i know it’s not the best idea , and he seems to be doing just fine without me… what should i do.