I met a guy at a theme park and instantly fell in love so did he we loved eachother so much, we ended up dating but didn't last long we both still had feelings for eachother and didn't know what to do, it's been a year and we still love eachother but he has a gf Andi don't know what to do becuase I don't want to move on. And I don't know if I should keep trying iwth him or just give up but I don't want to give up on him

⚠️TW⚠️ When I was about 9 I was in my room when I heard a loud bang and of course I went to go see what it was. It was my mother and my brother (15 at the time) fighting. It was over his stupid Xbox and him wanting to go out with friends she said no like she always did and that’s how it started.. I just stood there because I have a tendency to start having a panic/anxiety attack when there’s yelling even if it’s not directed towards me but anyways. I remember this part pretty clear because it’s now something that will stay with me forever like other things but uh she had grabbed my brothers Xbox (the whole thing) and had hit him with it. One thing I will always have a clear image of is the pure shock on my brothers face and the slow drip of blood that fell down his hands… she hit him so hard his knuckles started to bleed really bad.. although this wasn’t the first time it’s happened it’s still a shock.. she was and still is abusive but my dad left her and has full custody of me.. I refused to go with her because she didn’t only do that to my brother.. she’d abuse me as well weather it was mentally, physically or emotionally.. she fat shamed me if I’d go for seconds because he’ll my dad makes really good food and I loved it but she made me hate eating.. hate my body.. and so much more.. although I’m away from her I still have an ED (eating disorder) and have to go to therapy very often.. because of her I suffer from depression and anxiety and sh and along the lines of those things and no I’m not self diagnosed my doctors and therapist have said I am ;-; but now I’m 14 going on 15 and I’m still battling her affects on me even after not having her in my life anymore. Please know if your going through something like this your not alone<3 thank you for listening to my Ted talk (had to add some humour)

• June 3, 2023