I met a girl about 5 years ago and it was through a rehearsal of my friends 15 party, we met and got to know each other, in the first year we got to know each other and for the other years we fell in love. Keep in mind that she could never leave her house because her parents couldn’t let her have a boyfriend, for the last 5 years we only got to see each other like 6 times. During this time I had a hard time with myself and was always caught in a dark side, so I asked for time (like 2 weeks), even told her that I’ll come back even better to love her more. Skip to 5 years later, she is with another guy,happy and loving life without me in it. Just hope she can come back with so many of the promises we were planning to accomplish.

TW// self harm & suicide i’m known as the “perfect girl” with a “perfect life” by everyone. my parents are still together. there are literally no problems in my family, everyone gets along really well. we aren’t struggling with money. i have all A’s. i was accepted into one of the top private schools in my state. i’ve been on homecoming court and i’ve been elected for a position in the student council. my parents do everything they can to give me an amazing life. but for some reason i feel so sad. i don’t know why and i feel so selfish but i feel sad. i feel like everyone hates me and like they would be better off without me. everyone thinks i’m perfect and my friends even tell me that i’m “the only mentally stable person” that they know. i’m scared of telling anyone else this after it got out and got to my parents. but since this is anonymous i wanted to let it out. i self harm and i relapsed so many times. i attempted 3 times in the past 2 years. obviously it didn’t work and i don’t plan on doing it again for now but i have thoughts about it. it sucks. and i feel so hopeless and helpless even more since no one can see it. i know this is selfish but sometimes i wish people would try and understand and talk to me

• August 5, 2023