I married a great man. I love him very dearly. He has helped grow so much. He loves me, protects me, supports me takes care of me. He’s everything I once wanted too. He makes me happy. He makes me laugh. He’s a good soul. I cheated on him with my first love recently. He tells to leave my husband but I just can’t do it. I don’t know what to do. Part of me feels like the right thing to do is talk to my husband and tell him the truth but then other days I feel so ashamed and embarrassed of what I did because he doesn’t deserve this. I think about all the things we’ve been through all the beautiful memories we’ve created..everything we’ve built for each other ..our future ..our plans. I think about our families. How heartbroken they’ll feel, I think about my first love’s wife too, she doesn’t deserve this either. … But my first love makes me feel like home. He’s the first thing I think about when I wake up. The last thing I think about when I’m falling asleep. I think about him every second of my days. Even though we don’t talk everyday. Just occasionally. I feel trapped in my own feelings. He was the first man in my life the one I gave everything to. We parted our ways years back not because we didn’t love each other. But because we were so young at the time. And now that we reconnected I know we both feel the same way we did before. Our love never ended. I have this fight between my mind and my heart every day….