I love my boyfriend. I just don't like being in a relationship. I have done a lot of things I'm not proud of. I'm afraid he gonna leave but I also want him to. I don't get what to do I'm constantly in a battle of what to do. We have a kid together too. But day in and day out I think about not wanting to be where I'm at. I wanna marry him but I also want to be alone...

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I love my boyfriend. I just don't like being in a relationship. I have done a lot of things I'm not proud of. I'm afraid he gonna leave but I also want him to. I don't get what to do I'm constantly in a battle of what to do. We have a kid together too. But day in and day out I think about not wanting to be where I'm at. I wanna marry him but I also want to be alone...

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