I looked up to someone as a dad. He sexually, physically, and emotionally abused me. He's gonna now, but it still really hurts. He also abused his two partners physically, emotionally, and sexually. He got one of them pregnant. It hurts, because he lied about being a trans male. He was a cis male. But he would call me names, and kick me. He forced me to keep my mouth shut about everything. He threatened to beat me. I relapsed and started cutting myself again. I feel like I failed my new mother and father figures I have. I have a lot of parental figures, because I had a terrible childhood growing up. My dad had anger issues, and my mom was working a lot. But back into what I was saying, I really saw this person as another dad, but he sexually abused me. I'm glad my new parental figures would never do that. I attempted to take my own life, because of my old father figure. I had my friends help me get better, and my comfort characters help me get better. They're the only reason I'm still here and alive.