i liked this boy and we were close like bestfriends and he knew i liked him and he liked me back but then something happened like he kinda just lost feels and started dating this other girl we weren’t anything official but i didn’t know he could just forget about me but anyway he started ghosting me and basically me and my group of friends unfriended him bc he wouldn’t talk to us when i was around but now it’s been a year and honestly i’m better without him and working on myself and i like this one dude in my friend group who was friends will him but we’re kinda friends with benefits but i got a text from the old dude saying he regrets ghosting me and wants to date but honestly should i ? i said no and i told him he really hurt me and he’s begging me to date him but what makes me mad is he waited until he broke up with his girlfriend to talk to me

My parents split up in August of 2018. I was so mad at him for everything he did to me and my family, including my mom. He chose hard drugs, and to cheat on my mom with her childhood bestfriend. I texted him once in a while, because I was 15 and I wanted to make sure my dad knew I didn’t hate him. Then I cut off contact with him after seeing him again in December and hugging him for the last time. I was never able to see him. In March 2021, (my room was right beside the front door) I took a nap at 6pm and woke up at 8pm, to the front door being opened and my mom talking at the door, my grandma was crying and my siblings were upstairs. I was so confused and my grandma comforted me while crying, I asked her if my dad was dead. She said “yes my girl.. he killed himself..” I was in shock at first and I let out the most blood curdling cry. I regret not talking to him. I believe that it’s my fault he’s dead, because I didn’t talk to him. I have the last message he sent to me, and I read it almost every day. I wish I could have done something to save him. Maybe I could have stopped him.

• August 5, 2023