I killed a kid Not directly like with a knife or a gun, but more assisted than straightforward. I was 14 and bullied this 11 year old kid off the edge. For months I couldn’t be entertained by anything do I though he could change it, which he did. Tearing him down from his friends and family, forcing fights. Until his older brother found him hanging from the ceiling. I managed to fram some kids in his grade for it, not that anything happened to them because of their young age. But the worst part about it wasn’t watching his family crumble after his death, or watching the once popular kids become social outcast for “what they did”. The worst part is that in all of my time living after that, I never felt a single bit of remorse

TW// self harm & suicide i’m known as the “perfect girl” with a “perfect life” by everyone. my parents are still together. there are literally no problems in my family, everyone gets along really well. we aren’t struggling with money. i have all A’s. i was accepted into one of the top private schools in my state. i’ve been on homecoming court and i’ve been elected for a position in the student council. my parents do everything they can to give me an amazing life. but for some reason i feel so sad. i don’t know why and i feel so selfish but i feel sad. i feel like everyone hates me and like they would be better off without me. everyone thinks i’m perfect and my friends even tell me that i’m “the only mentally stable person” that they know. i’m scared of telling anyone else this after it got out and got to my parents. but since this is anonymous i wanted to let it out. i self harm and i relapsed so many times. i attempted 3 times in the past 2 years. obviously it didn’t work and i don’t plan on doing it again for now but i have thoughts about it. it sucks. and i feel so hopeless and helpless even more since no one can see it. i know this is selfish but sometimes i wish people would try and understand and talk to me

• August 5, 2023