I just recently became friends with my ex. We weren’t friends for around 6 months before this and the break up had ended very poorly (he had emotionally cheated on me). During those 6 months I always talked to my friends about how much I hated his guys and never ever wanted to speak to him again. Thing is, I have Borderline Personality Disorder. So I let my emotions control me more than logic (in this case, not in the disorder as a whole). I didn’t really want to never speak to him. But It was so much easier to be angry than sad about it. Now, None of my friends understand how close we are. And it’s hard to admit that I was mainly the “crazy” one in the relationship. That I definitely exaggerated the things he did. And that he’s really not a bad person, he was just stupid and made a mistake(Which he has apologized for countless times). We both wish we could turn back time and not hurt each other. We’re super duper close now and I wouldn’t be alive without him. He’s seriously my bestfriend. How do I explain to my friends that were just meant to be?? Couple or not were amazing for each other, and have always helped each other out.

I been thinking real hard about even relaying these awful things about the person that I have admired the most, the person I have respected and revered my whole life but that now, has completely backstabbed me in the worst way possible. A few years ago, a scandal broke in my political family involving my mother. As you can imagine, it nearly broke my marriage and tore my husband’s family apart. My sister in law found my father in law and my mom talking on social media. The worst part of it, when I was confronted, I was accused of knowing about the whole affair and made it looked like I was an accomplice to the whole ordeal. When I had absolutely no clue to such a disgusting mess. I don’t know what neither of them were trying to accomplish and now, I’m the black sheep of the family. No one talks to me. While my father in law is still loved and honored. My mother the home wrecker and I pay the sins of her ordeals. She never once has said I’m sorry. Never! In her head, I’m better off without that side of the family. But it’s not about that; why did she do this to me? Why my father in law? Among so many men? Why him! I guess I’m just looking for an explanation and I know I will never get it from her. Because she just cannot accept she did anything wrong. I wish I could get her version because as of now, I only know everyone else’s but her’s. I always thought I didn’t need to hear her side because it’s not my place to question her, but I have kids who now have to suffer for her sins as well. I don’t think it’s fair to them either. I guess the damage is done as well and the past is the past. I won’t get nothing accomplished but I just want an acknowledgment from her part that she messed up.

• August 12, 2023