i have this best friend and we’ve been close friends for the past two or so years. but anyways whenever we would talk id noticed that she would always talk behind her other friends back. i never thought anything of it until a couple months ago i got this job and this girl that worked there was really close friends with my best friend so she though i was her friend. she started off talking to me a lot about things i didn’t want to talk to her about. then she started touching me in places i didn’t wanna be touched at all. so i quit my job and reported her because i wasn’t comfortable there. my “best friend” would talk about it with me and tell me how much she doesn’t like that girl. but one day i say her in the window of her classroom sitting with the girl and laughing as if they were besties. then the other day at lunch i saw her sitting by her at lunch instead of sitting with me! what should i do about my friend?

TW// self harm & suicide i’m known as the “perfect girl” with a “perfect life” by everyone. my parents are still together. there are literally no problems in my family, everyone gets along really well. we aren’t struggling with money. i have all A’s. i was accepted into one of the top private schools in my state. i’ve been on homecoming court and i’ve been elected for a position in the student council. my parents do everything they can to give me an amazing life. but for some reason i feel so sad. i don’t know why and i feel so selfish but i feel sad. i feel like everyone hates me and like they would be better off without me. everyone thinks i’m perfect and my friends even tell me that i’m “the only mentally stable person” that they know. i’m scared of telling anyone else this after it got out and got to my parents. but since this is anonymous i wanted to let it out. i self harm and i relapsed so many times. i attempted 3 times in the past 2 years. obviously it didn’t work and i don’t plan on doing it again for now but i have thoughts about it. it sucks. and i feel so hopeless and helpless even more since no one can see it. i know this is selfish but sometimes i wish people would try and understand and talk to me

• August 5, 2023