I have Self h@rmed multiple times and tried to take my own life more times than I can count, and I think a big portion of that is due to My mom and dad getting divorced just recently. The hell they put me through all those years was terrible. My father was, and still is, a very big drug addict and is into child p0rn and other.. not so consensual videos. He was very violent, and while he never physically touched me he threw things at me and even went so far as to push me off of our front porch balcony. I was one of his child p0rn victims, although he never physically did anything to me he watched me go to the bathroom, video taped me sleeping and doing other things without my permission, and even jerked off to my clothing. I was three at the time he took my clothing and gave it back to me, full of his c^m. He collected my teeth and even went so far as to collect my hair and listen to me through the vents and jack off. Recently he tried to take me to his house, and this wasn’t like the other times. He physically attacked me and stuffed me in his car, if I hadn’t opened the car and tumbled out I most likely would’ve been raped and then sold off. By my own father. I feel bad about this, but whenever someone mentions parents who they’re just annoyed with I get angry. At least you have a parent who is semi functional, and even then at least your parent isn’t trying to r@pe you. Should I feel bad about thinking that way? It’s just hard when I’ve gone through a lot of abuse from my parents, but I genuinely feel angry and upset that they talk about those things, especially in front of me when they know it’s a touchy subject.