I have been having hallucinations when i go to sleep for a year now. They range from seeing dead family members to faces on YouTube videos turning green/red in demonic looking ways whilst laughing. Its so scary but i dont want to worry my mother. When i seek help they tell me to use sleep apps but they dont do shit. Currently get about 3 hours of sleep a night because of it, and am seriously considering ending my life.

My home isn’t a safe place anymore. it’s a bad environment and every time i leave school joyously, and enter my house, my mood completely flips into a negative one. everyone in my family always accuses me of who knows what and gets mad at me if i don’t let them control and manipulate me. every weekend i sleep at other peoples houses because i don’t want to be in that house longer then i have to and none of them even know about it. my mom always tells me i should express myself but when i do everyone just gets defensive and aims my accusations towards me as if it makes sense. i don’t know what to do anymore and i need help.

• July 25, 2023