I have always been treated as a replacement. I was shown that I am not important by my own family, probably unintentionally, and that created a void in my soul which is eating me up. I want to be heard but apparently no one cares. I feel hella alone and worthless. The only reason why i am even writing this today is because of my mom cause i am the only one whom she depends on or else i wouldn’t mind if i stoped breathing. I just wanna live again.

Alr so.. when I was younger I would get physically abused everyday till until about the age of 12 when I was saved from that home. (I’m 17 this year …) I always thought it was normal to grow up that way.. idk why I thought parents did that. I’m working through therapy but even they don’t know the darkest part about it . Anyway.. I still love them with everything In me.. that’s the problem tho.. im afraid to let go of the people I love the most . What do I do bcs I keep self harming and idk what to do anymore people keep leaving and hurting me so.. it’s like what do I even do yk. It’s too painful to even bring up verbally .. so yeah thanks for listening

• July 28, 2023