I have a secret confession to make.... I have been hearing voices for the past few years, around the time I turned 21. I thought it was because I smoked some pot, but it has just kept going. When it began, I heard my mom calling my never every so often. Now it has become a not only my mom's voice, but also a man's voice that I have never heard before. I've been keeping this secret for so long, but feel like I have to share it to get some relief.

When i was 11 i took my moms phone and search stuff little did i know it would have an impact on my life i started liking smaller boys than me thinking only sex stuff in my head like sleeping with them my concentration in class decreased and i started failing class every time is thinking about little boys age of 9 to 14 i needed help but my parents could see it because all they were thinking is there work and my grades leaving me in the dark i remember coming from school when i was 15 i found my dad in the couch with report card he scolded me telling me am a shame ,worthless and i will never make it in this world that i will be his worker in his shop i remember i went to depression for 7 weeks cried every single night didn't move outside for 7 wks just staying in my bed feeling sad playing with my body and thinking how my life could be better if I died but i didn't have the courage i always regret that day i took the phone and search that thing coz it turned my life around no girlfriend,bad grade,idk my sexulity and i won't accept it if am gay coz of my culture wasted my teen yrs watching porn and jerking off ...... struggling with alot of things like depression, anxiety,porn addict,masterbating addict and am 17yrs....been struggling with those for 6 yrs going 7 this December but know i call for help pls coz my parents wont help and am loosing hope....but one thing am proud of i never had sex with those boys but still struggling to control myself...if a parent read this plz talk to your boys and don't let them be in the dark like me

• February 5, 2023