I have a couzin who is 4 years older than me and when I was in grade 2 up till grade 4 he would show me porn and reenact it with me. I was way too young to understand what this was but I remember he would do it while my younger brother was in the room. I felt rlly uncomfortable and would tell him to stop but he never rlly listened, I've debated telling someone about this but I'm just scared on how this will affect how they look or think of me. I still see him till this day and we still talk.

I used to think a man was watching me everywhere I went. I live out in the woods and I’d have an irrational fear of his eyes watching me through my window at night. I lived like that for 2 years and sometimes things would happen. Our property was in the middle of nowhere but someone stole a chainsaw from our shed and I couldn’t sleep for 4 days. Another time my mom joked about thinking she heard someone ring the doorbell twice at night. She had no idea hearing that triggered me even worse. Another time I found a ballon hanging from a tree and I was certain it was a “sign” cuz I asked how else it got there. I slowly lost my mind and brought out a knife and tried asking the man I thought was watching me to kill me one night out in the woods. I was 12 and it was hard. We moved and I feel better but how do I get rid of the irrational fears like this I get??

• June 30, 2023