I have a constant urge to just stop trying to control my anger and brutally murder someone, I don’t care if I go to jail or if I get caught or hated I just need to, I know exactly how to do it but I know the consequences and that has kept me from doing anything like that, but I do have the intention to hurt anyone if they make me mad. There are a few people I wouldn’t feel even a little bit of guilt killing. If I tell anyone how I feel they will think I’m crazy or just being edgy,

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I have a constant urge to just stop trying to control my anger and brutally murder someone, I don’t care if I go to jail or if I get caught or hated I just need to, I know exactly how to do it but I know the consequences and that has kept me from doing anything like that, but I do have the intention to hurt anyone if they make me mad. There are a few people I wouldn’t feel even a little bit of guilt killing. If I tell anyone how I feel they will think I’m crazy or just being edgy,

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