I hate my puppy, I would never do anything bad for her cause I'm not a piece of caca but still, she was a gift from my abusive ex when we were in our honeymoon stage. After my ex and I broke up I took the dog so I could isolate him like he isolated me whenever he was upset but now I wish I didn't take her. She constantly reminds me of what I went through with him and the arguments, stress, depression, and overall hell I've been through with my ex. As much as I hate this dog I could never do her wrong, I could never hurt her because I know that none of this is her fault, I'm all she's known since she was four months old so I know why she loves me. I don't know what to do with her, my friends and family tell me not to get rid of her but sometimes I can't even bare to look in her direction.

TW// self harm & suicide i’m known as the “perfect girl” with a “perfect life” by everyone. my parents are still together. there are literally no problems in my family, everyone gets along really well. we aren’t struggling with money. i have all A’s. i was accepted into one of the top private schools in my state. i’ve been on homecoming court and i’ve been elected for a position in the student council. my parents do everything they can to give me an amazing life. but for some reason i feel so sad. i don’t know why and i feel so selfish but i feel sad. i feel like everyone hates me and like they would be better off without me. everyone thinks i’m perfect and my friends even tell me that i’m “the only mentally stable person” that they know. i’m scared of telling anyone else this after it got out and got to my parents. but since this is anonymous i wanted to let it out. i self harm and i relapsed so many times. i attempted 3 times in the past 2 years. obviously it didn’t work and i don’t plan on doing it again for now but i have thoughts about it. it sucks. and i feel so hopeless and helpless even more since no one can see it. i know this is selfish but sometimes i wish people would try and understand and talk to me

• August 5, 2023