I hate my life. And I mean this in the most literal way possible I have 1 or 2 real friends, I’m poor, my parents mentally abuse me every single day. My father is the one who slightly cares about me but just barely. I wish my mother would kill herself. My brother have severe OCD causing him to hate me. My other brother is a pedophile. The people at school threaten to kill me and jump me, they also tell me to kill myself. That’s why I left the school. My sister is sometimes an asshole but I know she cares about me. My teacher, Miss Lobato was the only thing keeping me in the school I was in. I love her so dearly and would die for her. I love my animals and I feel most at peace sitting alone in nature. Just standing outside heals me. I’m planning a suicide for my birthday March 31st. I’m done with life and hopefully my parents fix themselves for my siblings after I’m gone. I love you Lee(my sister) I love you Miss Lobato, you deserve the world and more.

TW// self harm & suicide i’m known as the “perfect girl” with a “perfect life” by everyone. my parents are still together. there are literally no problems in my family, everyone gets along really well. we aren’t struggling with money. i have all A’s. i was accepted into one of the top private schools in my state. i’ve been on homecoming court and i’ve been elected for a position in the student council. my parents do everything they can to give me an amazing life. but for some reason i feel so sad. i don’t know why and i feel so selfish but i feel sad. i feel like everyone hates me and like they would be better off without me. everyone thinks i’m perfect and my friends even tell me that i’m “the only mentally stable person” that they know. i’m scared of telling anyone else this after it got out and got to my parents. but since this is anonymous i wanted to let it out. i self harm and i relapsed so many times. i attempted 3 times in the past 2 years. obviously it didn’t work and i don’t plan on doing it again for now but i have thoughts about it. it sucks. and i feel so hopeless and helpless even more since no one can see it. i know this is selfish but sometimes i wish people would try and understand and talk to me

• August 5, 2023