I hate my BFF’s girlfriend/friends. Ever since she (BFF) moved she’s been different and right after she moved she was the same old person I knew. It was like that until she met her girlfriend and other friends. Now she’s doing things she would NEVER do before she met them. Once at a point her girlfriend and friends manipulated her into not being my friend. After some conversations we are as close as ever again. I just don’t want her to get hurt but yet I’m to scared to tell her how I feel in fear she might now want to be my friend anymore(Which would likely never happen I’m just a overthinker). Yet I feel guilty not telling her because it’s now fair to me and not let my feelings out and it’s not fair to her because I’m not telling her. I don’t know what to do like I want to tell her but on the other hand how will she react.

TW// self harm & suicide i’m known as the “perfect girl” with a “perfect life” by everyone. my parents are still together. there are literally no problems in my family, everyone gets along really well. we aren’t struggling with money. i have all A’s. i was accepted into one of the top private schools in my state. i’ve been on homecoming court and i’ve been elected for a position in the student council. my parents do everything they can to give me an amazing life. but for some reason i feel so sad. i don’t know why and i feel so selfish but i feel sad. i feel like everyone hates me and like they would be better off without me. everyone thinks i’m perfect and my friends even tell me that i’m “the only mentally stable person” that they know. i’m scared of telling anyone else this after it got out and got to my parents. but since this is anonymous i wanted to let it out. i self harm and i relapsed so many times. i attempted 3 times in the past 2 years. obviously it didn’t work and i don’t plan on doing it again for now but i have thoughts about it. it sucks. and i feel so hopeless and helpless even more since no one can see it. i know this is selfish but sometimes i wish people would try and understand and talk to me

• August 5, 2023