I had many friends in England. I knew most of the school. I never took a second to realize they were making my life better day by day. Now I have moved here, where people judge me and vandalize the things my friends had bought for me out of kindness because they were real friends, not like the people here. They would support me, wouldn't force me into anything and would listen to me. I miss them I regret not saying thank you once for everything I want to go back and hug each one of them and say stupid stuff to them again and laugh about it for ages.

This isn’t necessarily a deep dark secret in anyway, but it’s one I have to get off my chest. I have been burdened with it for 4 years now. I’ve known my bestfriend since I was born, and we always told eachother everything. We’re still bestfriends, we just don’t talk as much as we used to. I’ve liked him for a while but I never said anything because I didn’t think things would work out, and then I’d just end up losing my bestfriend. He told me a few months ago he started seeing this girl- who is now his girlfriend. Ever since he told me, it’s like I can barely look at him. I love him so much and he doesn’t even know, it makes my heart sink. How could I love someone so much and them not even know?

• July 22, 2023