I had a shitty life full of abuse, bullying, sexual assault etc. I met my 30 something year old husband at 18 and we fell in love and got married. I then had a miscarriage soon after but, that was a few years ago and I had another baby recently. I experience PPD and I am mostly going through this alone and it gets to the point where when my daughter's crying I sometimes want to hurt her but, I wouldn't do it because I love her too much but these thoughts really suck so for the love of God if you just had a baby or you're pregnant please get help if you feel any symptoms of post partum depression, aggression or anxiety or if you don't feel like yourself. It's very real and I currently am getting help for it not just for me but, for my daughter. Believe me I love my daughter and would never hurt her but, these bad thoughts just pop in my head's sometimes, I would never go through with them but they still appear. So again, please get yourself help and don't let anyone tell you that you don't need it or it's fake because you can save yourself, you're child or someone you love by getting help because it's real.