I had a friend,his family was messed up and I was always there for him.He would sleep at my house when his dad was drunk,we would be togheter like 24/7.One Day he was ignoring me hiding from me lets just say avoiding me,that was going on for 2 days i got pretty mad or better say sad.After 2 days he was calling me on my phone but I just ignored it because I was pissed.Later that day he killed himself,his father beat him up and after he killed himself and it was my fault.He left me a note where it said that he was avoiding me because he didnt want me to see his face,brusies and tears he said I was his last hope,that he loves me and that it isnt my fault.3 years pased and I still cant get over it i was supossed to be there for him but I wasnt i still obv cry about it and blame myself.I miss him.Daily reminder:whatever happens be there for others dont let little thing drive you away!!

I been thinking real hard about even relaying these awful things about the person that I have admired the most, the person I have respected and revered my whole life but that now, has completely backstabbed me in the worst way possible. A few years ago, a scandal broke in my political family involving my mother. As you can imagine, it nearly broke my marriage and tore my husband’s family apart. My sister in law found my father in law and my mom talking on social media. The worst part of it, when I was confronted, I was accused of knowing about the whole affair and made it looked like I was an accomplice to the whole ordeal. When I had absolutely no clue to such a disgusting mess. I don’t know what neither of them were trying to accomplish and now, I’m the black sheep of the family. No one talks to me. While my father in law is still loved and honored. My mother the home wrecker and I pay the sins of her ordeals. She never once has said I’m sorry. Never! In her head, I’m better off without that side of the family. But it’s not about that; why did she do this to me? Why my father in law? Among so many men? Why him! I guess I’m just looking for an explanation and I know I will never get it from her. Because she just cannot accept she did anything wrong. I wish I could get her version because as of now, I only know everyone else’s but her’s. I always thought I didn’t need to hear her side because it’s not my place to question her, but I have kids who now have to suffer for her sins as well. I don’t think it’s fair to them either. I guess the damage is done as well and the past is the past. I won’t get nothing accomplished but I just want an acknowledgment from her part that she messed up.

• August 12, 2023