I had a family friend around my age who would come over a lot with his family bc we were all friends and stuff. but we were only 10 and he raped me repeatedly, and i never had the courage to tell anyone. he committed suicide a year ago but i’m 19 now. i’ve been raped 26 times and there’s nothing i can do about it, no one i can tell who will believe me. so now i just live with the knowledge that i’m used

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I had a family friend around my age who would come over a lot with his family bc we were all friends and stuff. but we were only 10 and he raped me repeatedly, and i never had the courage to tell anyone. he committed suicide a year ago but i’m 19 now. i’ve been raped 26 times and there’s nothing i can do about it, no one i can tell who will believe me. so now i just live with the knowledge that i’m used

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