I had a beat friend in primary school. We did everything together and one day she asked me to go to the toilets with her (cuz that’s what girls do) and I was a bit behind her. When I caught up she was already in the toilets washing her hands and there were other girls in there too. I heard one of them ask her ‘how do you even hang out with her (me)’ and my best friend said ‘I don’t even know, she literally so annoying’ so I ran off crying. I never told her I heard what she said I just cut off the friendship. Now I’m in high school and she acts like she doesn’t even know me. I also self-harm now because I feel worthless and I don’t have the guts to tell my mum.

I always feel like I have no friends. I have two friendsgroups but still I feel like it. I just started 8th grade last year, a new class and a new school, but still the same people. I got in class with 3 of my besties. Were were a group. But only one of them was like my real bestie. Then we met a girl from another school in our class and became friends with her too. But it was most my bestie that got friends with her, also one of the others in the group. My bestie and her started to hangout more often then I could hang out with her. Im jealous. And I know i am. Im jealous of the new girl that stealed my bestie. But she didnt steal her, my "old" bestie left me. But I still have the two other friends in the friend group. We 5 are still a group, but not so much. I also have this other friend group where one of the others from the other group is in too. We are 6 girls. Four of them was really a friend grouo, but then me and the other friend made it in the group. Or atleast I thought I did. (I walk with two of them to school) Today, both said they werent walking home, cause their going to the mall, but I didnt think they were going together. But when I found out all the 5 others in the grouo were going together, i got sad. It felt like they left me out. Im so bad at asking to join too. I feel like that would be disrespectful. I feel like everyone hates ne, and that im annoying to be around. Please help me, i litterly dont know if I can do it anymore.

• July 27, 2023