i grew up being taught that every swear word was a bad word so i never swore or said any of them but i knew what they were from hearing them from others. in 10th grade i was in a rlly "rebellious" mood during the homecoming dance lmfao so i was screaming lyrics and swearing for the first time... except i didn't know that the n word had such a ugly history and thought it was just any other swear word (public education failed me i guess) so sicko mode blasted and i screamed the n word and every head turned my way. it was so embarrassing. my friend had to pull me aside and explain. i apologized to everyone and people knew me so they knew i would never purposely do that but oh my god it took a while to recover.

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i grew up being taught that every swear word was a bad word so i never swore or said any of them but i knew what they were from hearing them from others.

in 10th grade i was in a rlly "rebellious" mood during the homecoming dance lmfao so i was screaming lyrics and swearing for the first time... except i didn't know that the n word had such a ugly history and thought it was just any other swear word (public education failed me i guess)

so sicko mode blasted and i screamed the n word and every head turned my way. it was so embarrassing. my friend had to pull me aside and explain. i apologized to everyone and people knew me so they knew i would never purposely do that but oh my god it took a while to recover.

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