I feel like my family would be better off without me. I struggle from really bad mental illnesses and feel like they just can’t keep up with me anymore. I also just can’t seem to actually be happy as much as I used to be. My family already has to put up with 3 other kids so it’s not like they would be missing out on much anyways. I try my best to act like I’m ok but just can’t get passed it.

My home isn’t a safe place anymore. it’s a bad environment and every time i leave school joyously, and enter my house, my mood completely flips into a negative one. everyone in my family always accuses me of who knows what and gets mad at me if i don’t let them control and manipulate me. every weekend i sleep at other peoples houses because i don’t want to be in that house longer then i have to and none of them even know about it. my mom always tells me i should express myself but when i do everyone just gets defensive and aims my accusations towards me as if it makes sense. i don’t know what to do anymore and i need help.

• July 25, 2023