i don't known if this is a secret but... im just tired... im so tired not even sleep can help this tired. i just wanna wake up one day and genuinely feel happy... not sad, not depressed just happy. everyone keeps telling me to hold on but i don't know if i can hold on any longer. life just keeps getting harder every single day and my mental health is getting worse... but the part that hurts me the most is that no one ever cared.

i’m tired. i used to be a straight A student all through middle school. i was a good kid. never argued, had lots of friends, was likable, nice, i loved my life. i’m now a freshman in high school, so i’m not that old. i’m scared to eat, i can’t trust anyone, i’m failing 4 classes, i don’t come out of my room, just lost my best friend, my ex who i still love despises every inch of me. it’s taking a toll on my mental health and i’m just tired of being here. tired of pretending i’m happy just so other people don’t worry about me. i don’t know what to do, how to react. my anxiety is over the roof, to where i can’t even get out of bed. i got diagnosed with being bipolar, which is hard. i just don’t know what to do. i’m trying but i’m so tired. i’m running out of options.

• August 2, 2023