I don't ever tell anyone but this is probably the most traumatizing thing I've ever seen and experienced. I was about 4 years old and me and my best friend Lynn she was 6. She was at my house and had to go home so me and my uncle were walking her home it was a very busy street and many cars were out. We finally got to her house and we were waiting to cross the street. Her mom walked out the front door and Lynn was so excited to see her mom she ran across the street. Lynn was struck by a car and later died at the scene. To this day I have felt so much regret becuase I was supposed to hold her hand. I have no idea if this was related at all but 4 years later I saw a ghost. I'll be honest it resembled Lynn but being 8 years old I was to scared and was balling my eyes out. The spirit was just standing at the end of my bed. It's weird becuase I so vaguely remember even though these incidents were so long ago. 17 now I still think to those days. And wonder.

TW// self harm & suicide i’m known as the “perfect girl” with a “perfect life” by everyone. my parents are still together. there are literally no problems in my family, everyone gets along really well. we aren’t struggling with money. i have all A’s. i was accepted into one of the top private schools in my state. i’ve been on homecoming court and i’ve been elected for a position in the student council. my parents do everything they can to give me an amazing life. but for some reason i feel so sad. i don’t know why and i feel so selfish but i feel sad. i feel like everyone hates me and like they would be better off without me. everyone thinks i’m perfect and my friends even tell me that i’m “the only mentally stable person” that they know. i’m scared of telling anyone else this after it got out and got to my parents. but since this is anonymous i wanted to let it out. i self harm and i relapsed so many times. i attempted 3 times in the past 2 years. obviously it didn’t work and i don’t plan on doing it again for now but i have thoughts about it. it sucks. and i feel so hopeless and helpless even more since no one can see it. i know this is selfish but sometimes i wish people would try and understand and talk to me

• August 5, 2023